This is where we found out we lost our first pregnancy. We never got to hear that lovely sound.
I talked about this with my therapist yesterday, and we discussed how this pregnancy is already so different from last time. Last time I spotted nearly non-stop. This time I've been blessed with no spotting (knock on wood). Last pregnancy my numbers were low. This pregnancy they are very high. Last pregnancy I just knew something was wrong. This pregnancy really feels like we are going to have a baby in June. For real.
But this does not dull the fact that tomorrow I will walk into the same ultrasound room where two years ago at exactly 7 weeks we cried tears of sadness over our impending loss. It's going to be hard and emotional. But I truly believe that tomorrow we will cry tears of joy over whats to come. My therapist told me I need to acknowledge the difficult thoughts and emotions, but be in the moment. I'm going to try my hardest.
I have no doubt that things are cooking down there. So far for symptoms:
- Unbelievably sore and large breasts with big blue veins popping out. Sometimes I look down and am shocked thinking "who's boobs are these"? As someone who has never been well endowed, I'm enjoying the extra oomph!
- Exhausted....as in I want to take a nap at my desk most days. I'm generally in bed shortly after my 9 p.m. PIO shot, but my body seems to think I need to be wide awake again at 4, after peeing several times during the night.
- Bloating. By the end of the day my pants feel tight. One of my coworkers asked me yesterday if I was losing weight. Ummmm, nope -- did you notice the tight pants? Thank goodness for fall/winter clothing that I can camouflage my belly with.
- Nausea. I'll take nausea when I wake up for $200 Alec. Oh wait, morning sickness isn't just in the morning? I haven't thrown up yet, but have been awfully close and have definitely wished I had so I would feel better. I find I can't eat a lot at a time and some foods are just off limits.
While these symptoms are annoying at times, I would not change them for anything because they help me know that something is happening down there, in my tummy. I haven't had some of the usual early symptoms like peeing all the time & constipation (thanks to my daily probiotic).
I'm working with the fabulous Suzy from Not a Fertile Myrtle to set up a new blog to keep all of my pregnancy info and share it with family and friends. More details on that to come. If anyone has a great idea for a new pregnancy blog name, I'm open to ideas. My creativity is lacking these days!
Thank you ladies for all of your congratulations and words of encouragement!